College update.

11 days of classes to go and 39 days until all my assignments are handed in. THEN THE DISSERTATION. My nerves!

I am working on four essays simultaneously. I have organised all the research that I have to do but I have a great deal of archive work to delve into which is very time-consuming. The next 39 days are going to be a bit manic.

I cannot believe how quickly the year has flew by. It’s been an extremely challenging year but I have loved the course so much. It’s the best thing I have ever done. I struggled and rushed through my assignments all year, feeling confused, very insecure and unsure about what I was doing and how to do it. Now in this last month, and only now, quite suddenly, I feel like all the knowledge and skills I have acquired slowly throughout the year have come together and I feel more confident about what to do in these last few assignments. Eight months of insecure cluelessness and in my first few weeks of not feeling totally directionless. With this new confidence also comes the realisation that I am only scratching the surface of the knowledge that I want to pursue. The more I have studied and read, the more ignorant I have felt and the more I have craved knowing more. I feel that I could take a sabbatical at the end of the course and just gladly spend the whole next year going over all the course materials again. Spend more time with them. There are so many areas of the course I would have liked to study in more depth but I did not have the time to do so.

Excuse me for being repetitive but I am off Instagram again so that I can focus on work without distractions. Although, yes, I am still struggling with the whole social media thing.